And this is just the beginning...

Before babe I loved being able to focus on my career. It may not have been the right career for me, but what a pleasure it was to throw myself at it and enjoy the freedom of complete commitment. These days, building a brand new career from nothing but a few courses and a great personality, I find myself wishing I had all the time in the world to devote myself to internships, volunteer roles and paid positions. I would work 80 hour weeks if I could. I know I could rocket myself from marketing intern to guru in a year. If....

But that's not the way it goes as a mom. Instead, I spent half my day worrying about my sweet son after receiving a phone call from my childcare provider telling me my son had been miserable all morning. I then spent the next couple hours calling my partner, calling my mom, calling different possible childcare providers - trying to figure out if this was normal and what was my best course of action. In the end, my son had a great nap and was a super star for the rest of the day.

The truth is, I don't want to be away from my son for a single moment. At the same time, I really want to be away from my son for many moments. I am one those moms - the ones that wish they had the patience, the interest & the creativity to mother full time. I just don't. I know I will be a better mom if I also have a career. I know I will be able to give him more if I also give to myself.

Our goal is to have our son attend some type of childcare for 3 days a week. This means I have 3 days + nights + weekends to create a new career. Creating a new career includes studying, interning, volunteering, branding myself and looking for work. It's a tough gig!

Maybe, if I didn't love the field of marketing communications, I would feel like it was too tough. Thankfully, I don't actually care that I am up past midnight, writing a blog post to promote myself while my babe and partner sleep sweetly. Thankfully, I have an awesome partner who will let me sleep in tomorrow. Maybe my son will also get that memo.